Psalm 91
1 Those who live in the shelter of the Most High
will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.2 This I declare about the LORD:
He alone is my refuge, my place of safety;
he is my God, and I trust him.3 For he will rescue you from every trap
and protect you from deadly disease.4 He will cover you with his feathers.
He will shelter you with his wings.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection.5 Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,
nor the arrow that flies in the day.6 Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness,
nor the disaster that strikes at midday.7 Though a thousand fall at your side,
though ten thousand are dying around you,
these evils will not touch you.8 Just open your eyes,
and see how the wicked are punished.9 If you make the LORD your refuge,
if you make the Most High your shelter,10 no evil will conquer you;
no plague will come near your home.11 For he will order his angels
to protect you wherever you go.12 They will hold you up with their hands
so you won’t even hurt your foot on a stone.13 You will trample upon lions and cobras;
you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet!14 The LORD says, “I will rescue those who love me.
I will protect those who trust in my name.15 When they call on me, I will answer;
I will be with them in trouble.
I will rescue and honor them.16 I will reward them with a long life
and give them my salvation.”

Hey

So I’ve been totally avoiding this blog, not on purpose. Its November!!!! Yay!!!! Can’t wait, I love this time of the year. Well that’s all for right now!!! Bye!!!

What the what

I can not believe in the things I am hearing and seeing on tv. These is crazy…..taxes are going up, nuclear gas weapons have been fired(supposedly) Jesus we need your help all over. Thats all…there more I could say but I not cause them feds watching. So you guys be careful and watchful.

I won’t go back

Mornings like this always have me running back to that one guy, thinking he must be the one. No!!!! You deserve to be someone’s first choice not someone’s after thought. I refuse to go down that path. I follow him because if I dont imma always wonder what is his doing, is he okay and so on and so forth. He was a lesson, never rely on people…..just do you boo. I’ve started doing that, it’s tough, I must admit. I am slowly understanding that this life is all about the choices you make, not your friends,family or anyone else….this life is your. You have to deal with the consequences of your decision and actions. You also have to know your worth and value. Im priceless I can’t be bought. I just would like for people to that, but they never will. People get hurt by people and those people usually hurt other people. My goal is not to ever be that person on purpose. I don’t want to hurt anybody. With that it seems like I get hurt or damage by everybody I know. Sometimes I just wanna give, throw in the towel on being caring, helping, and kind all that nice stuff……but I can’t its my nature and character. I love putting other first,it’s just sometimes I want someone to put me first you know. It’ll all happen in due time, in meantime I just have to keep taking these beatings of life and keep pressing my forward. I am good enough

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Lately I have been so sad, you can even say depressed. Like today I ate horrible food, didn’t work out just so sad. Like I feel like im about to bust, im filled with so much anger and disappointment in myself. Im supposed to be doing more with my life. I feel like im just cruising. Trying to become a better person bit I feel like no one is excepting the new me. Or maybe I haven’t really changed and only think I’ve changed. Some days are good and some days(like today) I just feel like im suck.
Im the only one in the house not working. I feel like mu sisters talk about why I dont have to work. You should see the way they look at me. It makes me sad cause I really do want to work, its just no one wants to hire me.
Then I told them I want to model,knowing how the industry is. I went to a casting call got the gig….come fitting day, my heart sunk because I realize I will never be a size zero or two. Only then I would cast for (paid jobs) mostly likely won’t be high fashion, which is what I truly want to do. I want be able to lose the weight because I lose weight differently.
At times, most times, I feel like my mom only deals with me because my sisters at work or I dont do anything wrong or “right” she only talks about clothes. Sometimes I really feels like she thinks im dumb. She doesn’t listen to me and that weighs in my heart heavy.
There is just so much going on in my mind this is the only way I can say how I feel.